I've been thinking about this lately. One of my friends was a little nervous to have her friends, us, start mingling with her boyfriend's friends.
I grin and say, " noo, it'll be alright? we're adults right? we can all try to get along. it'll be fine." Our core really only contains sarah, chris, courtney( when shes around), and me. I told chris what sarah said and his reaction was exactly the same as her," ..yeaaah. i dont know about that, we're kind of weird people. We're our own kind of breed."
I laughed, and never really thought of ourselves to be "different," and not in like a bad way or anything i think...i don't think we're anything AWESOME, but we're unique people that i suppose take interest in different things and events in the world. More to our lives then facebook status, football & video games i suppose.
I'm not very old but life in highschool was awesome. when i look back on photos of the past...life was truly a dream with no cares in the world.Partying, having fun, do some homework and go hang out with your friends in parking lots. I guess people say we were clicky back then. maybe we were...maybe we still are... but we never exclude anyone. Eventually by our senior year everyone was friends with everyone. But then i got into college were everyone seems to only be worried about themselves. it seems to me extremely hard to make friends who i would actually care for. i hope that doesnt make me sound stuck up. But in all honesty try to have a real conversation with me. I think im pretty easy to get along with.. if you like me i like you. but i just cant deal with self centered people. maybe im being too cynical of people. or im not giving them a chance? I'm kind of sad that i havent made those great relationships that i should have in college? I guess i didn't get the traditional big university thing either. I seem to have an old soul....I always gravitate to the older crowd. SO maybe im just weird. It just seems like everyone is in a hurry to get we every there going, were all just so disconnected from each other. Nothing seems personal anymore. Mass txt & email, fb, getting on a bus putting your headphones on, and do you remember the last time you got a real snail mail letter? I dont know life just seems to hit a really weird intersection. I try not be like all those sorority girls who are getting wasted at 2 in the afternoon. and all they care about it partying and the gossip around campus. like seriously who gives a crap, in reality is that even going to mean anything to you in 7 year? yeah the greek life thing is a neat idea but its also kind of cult like. no offensive. I guess to be fair not everyone acts like that, just the good majority i've experienced.
i think i have a good heart, my intentions are there and i care, maybe too much for others. Maybe when we get older we just start getting tainted and jaded from all the crappy negative shit we have to put up with. working, making money to be able to pay rent and live is pretty stressful. Maybe having no money left to have fun. Or many people are just big jerks and i picking the wrong type of people to surround myself with...Maybe my pink rosie shades have just finally disappeared completely.
The holidays always remind me of all the people i do have though in my life and that i love very much. Yes Quality is way more important than Quantity now a days..Anyway im getting sick, my sisters been hacking her lungs out on everything..UGH! pisses me off. i hate being sick. I see her coughing in her hands and then touching everything!!! oh i was praying not to get sick... but of course its inevitable.
So some things i've been meaning to catch up on was thanksgiving and snow day photos.
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| I spy something red. |
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| Sony licking up some snow! Yum. |
CURRENT TUNE: Brett Dennen, ain't no reason.
OH! and last night glees episode was kind of dramatic and kind of annoying, but at the end they had a great preformance, they picked The dogs days are over by FLorence and the machine..OH...i love it oh so much!! I think they did a great job.
