It Gets Better.

I came across this video earlier today... I really don't like to sit through whole youtube videos. But this one really was heart felt. I feel for those who suffer in silence and feel like their alone. We all feel little sometimes, shouldn't we as man kind try to help each other up, looking past gender, age, orientation; look at each other as equals? people who cry and bleed all the same. Of course my views differ from others, but we should at least listen with open ears & hearts. Thanks Pixar for standing behind your employees & putting this video together..

The First Fill in the blank friday!

I stumbled upon this awesome blog! im new to this whole thing. so im sorry lauren i totally linked your site! HA! i dont know what im doing! but her site is awesome. so thanks for distracting me for a few minutes! I found her through my friend Liz.  SO here it goes!

1.   My Thanksgiving plans this year will include      Going to visit my boyfriends family in Washington, and having dinner with my own family! I'm SO excited to stuff my face of good home cooking!

2.  My favorite Thanksgiving was  .....You know...i love every thanksgiving!!! I have a huge family so really its always an excuse to get together and chow down!

3.  My signature Thanksgiving dish is  ...I'm great at eating ;)... i usually bring a good dessert...BUT this year should be different i haven't thought of what I should bring this year...any good recipes?

4.  My favorite Thanksgiving food is   pumpkin pie hands down easily!!! And really for some reason i really like that weird looking cranberry sauce that everyone always thinks twice about. Maybe because it looks funky coming out of the can.. but hey i love that stuff with turkey!!!...and stuffing...MMM!

5.  Thanksgiving free association!     Pumpkin pie, family, LOADS of food & drinks, potluck, Turkey gooble gooble. stuffing, Indians & Pilgrims, Leafs turning, chaos. :)

6.  Thansgiving is    My response is almost the same reason as Laurens. I Love thanksgiving because its filled with good food, great company without the hassle & stress of presents. Its a simple holiday so i hope everyone enjoys it that way. Dont forget to tell the ones you care about thank u & that u love them! And take the time to really think about why your thankful. I know i complain about my life alot but that doesnt mean i dont  love it!

7.  I am thankful for   a loving family regardless of my actions and who are supportive of my personal choices. I'm thankful for my goofy sister and my animals SOny & Jake. they really do make life so much better. I'm thankful that i have the opportunities to make my own choices and even having all these different options from clothes, to religion, and career. Im thankful for all those who work so hard and sometimes don't get the appreciation they deserve, i hope they all know we all do appreciation the behind the senses work. I'm thankful for my health. Thankful to have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me no matter what. Thankful to have such wonderful friends who are really my true friends. and of course im thankful for all the food thats going to be provided for this holiday! OH and I how i forget...im thankful to have GOOD MUSIC in my life!...I'm VERY thankful for the life i live.

I want to write so much more now! but i have many many chores to attend too. But i was very excited to do this BLANK friday! Thanks Lauren!

A RiinnNg ALing aling, Cing cIng, you got it or u aint.

Well, i got what i wish for. I finally put my resume into a temp agency. Got placed in a call center, never had experience with this. Interesting for the most part. Theres like 300 of us. SOOO many people. My shift starts at 5 am-1:30pm...OH MY! SO EARLY! i actually should go to bed. i've just been so antsy to write my blog....I hate having to sleep at 8 to get up at 3! glad this isnt my career.The center is super chaotic, no one knows what their doing at all, not even the leads.they walk around and pretend like they know what their doing. its pretty interesting. Everyones a temp, with different backgrounds, age, professions, i've met some pretty neat people. I'm going to leave it here for now and continue when i have the time. apparently we are going to have to work 12 days straight! over time..i HOPE! anyway iam getting sleepy. i'll leave with this note, came across it and its a beautiful picture.

Your deserving too

I'm a weird mood. I don't know. I don't know how to explain this state i'm in. Is it possible to be upset without knowing the cause? well I think I know the problem. but its hard to admit to myself. Tell me world, how to stop being so indecisive. I seem to live my life always in the gray and never in the black or white. I guess i would rather live in a more colorful world but those standards seem hard to obtain. I need this damn program to start so i stop feeling so empty.... maybe thats it. i just feel....empty and alone in a sense. i feel awful saying this but my head is just spinning with ideas, thoughts, and pain. Things I have a hard time expressing in words. i just dont know when i started feeling so...BLAH. i think ive been doing somethings to numb my thoughts and feelings for so long and for once im thinking clearing and having to face this reality. Someone once told me if you dont like the cake change the ingredients, i thought that was a pretty good analogy. I'm not very happy/content with my life, i need to change something. What though i dont know. I hope no one is actually reading this, none of my thoughts make sense. i just need a place to vent. I have an interview tomorrow for a job, hope this shit happens. seriously not being productive has made mee feel like a shitty useless person.i think im slowly getting stupider by the passing days. 

ALright early day for me, maybe for you as well. Goodnight fellow bloggers.

Current music: Shark in the water- V.V Brown...Love Love it right now.