It'll be alright, hold on to what you know is true.

Current tune: Feel the tide, Mumford and sons...rocks.

 It's been a good weekend and good few days. Moving back into town takes some time to adjust back to normal civilian life. I forget people around here don't walk around in there sweats and backpacks. people shun some of the things college kids do in the streets..cars..I'm just so content with just hanging out at home. so lame.
However this weekend was different. One of my friends got tickets to a comedy club downtown. we were all virgins and a little skeptical. the demographics were all over the board so really we didn't know what to expect. But hey alcohol and food were involved so whatever. the show turned out to be hilariousssssss! so flippin funny its a must do. After the show my buddy chris and i attended this party in NE called blow pony. everyone was just feelin it, the music, the men, the women. it was  freaking fun. definitely pushed me out of my comfort zone but i guess we should do at least one thing were scared of a day. I should start being more serious about that philosophy. the only thing that sucks partying downtown now is having to get back home somehow after a night of drinking. but as you can see i always figure out a way to get home.

What else happened this week.

Its weird how highschool works. i kind of miss those days. pretty low stress, just hanging out with your friends, no one really had a serious job. life was good then. ANYWAY, I met up with one of my old girlfriends from HS. its interesting that we all go our separate ways after all these years but yet somehow we end up back here. I'm sure the state of our current economy aids to the cause. but i guess for my own selfish needs i like having those old friendships alive again. I mean things havent changed much between Jahnel and i, life gets busy ya know?

Yesterday was the first blazer game against the phoenix suns. my favorite people came over and we carved pumpkins and watched the game. take a guess what each one are. i like carving pumpkins, but i always forget the feelings of sticking your hands into a cold pumpkin and scoping the guts out. nasty. everyone seems to always get stressed when their carving. Cmon its suppose to be fun not something to get anxious over. chris also came in a great costume that i really want!i dig it. its funny.
 we decided we should be different species of bears. i mean..really how funny would that be if u saw random people dressed up as bears drinking a cocktail or beer. pretty damn funny. i dont know what to be of even what im doing yet for halloween. it falls on a sunday this year. kind of lame cause people work on monday and also sarah works fri and sat at 4 am. that blows huge.   anyway. i love this. i love just ramble about nothing important.Blazers had a back to back game today. so far 2-0! freakin ya! my boy batum is owning. mmm i love him. anyway, this is early for me but i gotta get up early for a doctors appt. my fav.

Hmmm

Current track: Laundry room; Avett Brothers

I'm not sure if this is a good habit to be getting into. Oh the joys of funployment. Having no schedule, sleep when I want, wake up when I want, do as I wish whenever I want too! Who I am kidding of course I dig this life style. But then the that little voice inside my head is telling me to stop being such a piece of crap. JOBS JOBS. I HATE APPLYING TO JOBS. I mean really, how many times have you fill out the addresses of your previous jobs and  3 references. Just gets tedious. Blah. Hope is slowly fading away. Everyone around me is busy with school, work, seriously I feel so useless. lol. I mean my life is going to start getting busy in December I guess it isn't THAT long, nonetheless it FEELS like FOREVER and too long to be doing nothing. 

Tomorrow I'm headed down to the eug to visit my bf just for the day though. Totally sucks that I'm here right now and his whole apartment complex is celebrating the Ducks victory. Hopefully we'll be ranked numba 1!! 

Ugh, I feel asleep at like 6 pm and took a 2 hour nap, so not tired. I'm going to stick my nose into the book thief before I hit the hay. I forgot how good it felt to actually read for fun again. Anyone out there have a good book suggestion?

Its been awhile.

Wow, apparently I never use this. I forgot this account existed until I tried to make a new account. hehe. Everyday I think of random ass thoughts in my head and think huh I should write this down somewhere... By the time I get home I forgot hahaha. I should start writing things down.

I'm kind of new to this eblogging culture. But looking at some other blogger's inspire me to share my life. I can't say I have a very interesting life but I'm trying to enjoy and learn on this journey. There are alot of ups and downs but shit I suppose you can't truly enjoy one without the other. Looking back at my past blogs makes me so bummer to be back to lame reality. I'm trying to make the right decisions in my life so I'll be able to live how I'd like in the future. I just hope I'm making the right choice not the mention praying to get myself through this surgical tech program.

Other then trying to get my life in order what else...I love music and photography. All sorts of genres over the years. My boyfriend bought me a lomography camera last Christmas but I have yet to get film developed. Not having money kind of puts a damper on things.

I guess this blog is just going to be my rambling thoughts. Is that what these are suppose to be? In reality I can't imagine that many people interested in this life either.

                     

I recently moved back home. Trying to get some help while going to school. It's super weird and hard being back here. After 3 years of freedom I've been spoiled. Oh well. It could be worse. Just gotta suck it up and get through it.
Random thought. The other day while I was driving with my aunt in SE portland there was this old man, pretty old mowing his lawn. I don't know why but that seems to amaze me. That the human will is so strong and still thrives.I don't know I've worked with old people we were like 102! my Grandpas getting pretty old, 98. Slowly its obviously his health is declining. I always wonder though if hes come to terms, I mean obviously its scary as shit. I don't think I have for myself. But I can only hope to live as long as him and see the things he has. I'll just leave it at that for now.

This internet thing is crazy. To stop and really think about how connected and plugged in we all are. Kinda freaky.. I'm getting tired. I'll finish this thought later.

I'm leaving on some photo notes;
 

Current Music: Glee soundtrack

Current Reading: The Book Thief